the crazy period is finally over!!!
but it seems like there's always more trouble coming your way!!!
quote from iqbal, "OMG!"
lol...

so what happened...
i flung my bio test and scored a F...
then the crazy week of band practice every day, tests/ICAs, burning midnight oil to rush powerpoints like never before and more things that i can't be bothered with...
people should start doing their work to get the marks they DESERVE...
if u think u are getting too much work and have the right to be inpatient or even angry with every other person, then get a life, u won't fit in this society...
ok, just a bit of whinning...
will do...

and i had this dream 2 days ago, i was in a relationship with someone!
the bad news, someone i shouldn't be with...
lol...
i guess there is nothing perfect in this world, especially in my life...
but i don't think i'm desperate...
i have all my girlfriends, the 38 mafias, jingyi yujia qiuyin jingyi and all the other girls...
and i have the Old People group...
lol...
relationship will come naturally, when the time is right...

anyway, i've lots of thoughts recently...
how i wish i have iphone...
then i can put them on facebook...
:)
but a poor student like me won't be able to buy that...
:(

k, enough crap...
shall post again another day...
:]
{ 19:45 }

did i mention that something "magical" happened last Wednesday?
hehe...
;)

and olivia says she rocks!!!
{ 13:36 }

lately, i found myself a little helpless and also a bit more selfish as compared to last time...
i don't know if the change is good but i'm feeling it isn't permanent...
like a transition period...
this is not me...
that is why i'll feel uncomfortable at times...
i know it...
sry guys, hope it's not affecting anyone...
especially those who see me at least once a week...

today was at amk hub with pan, sihui and von eating pepper lunch...
i tried the pasta and it's nice!
didn't regret trying new stuff!
:]
then went to KOI to get bubble tea!!!
apparently i asked for too much...i bought the large hazelnut milk tea and ask for extra pearl...
ended up the person give me half a cup of pearl and i miraculously finished it!!!
omg...
its damn nice but too much pearl...
shall not be greedy next time...
walked around hub with with my huge milk tea...
and today's people in hub are all so weird!
first, we meet a group of pri sch kids in the toilet, trying to attach strands of purple hair extension onto each other's hair...
lol...
even worse...
got 2 sec sch ah lian walk out of cubicle and act da jie...
look at them and walk like dunno what shit...
all these were witness by pan...
then when i came out the sec sch girl like stare at us for dunno what also...
then when waiting for von, got this grp of ppl...
male and female...
the guy ask girl A to pass bag to girl B but girl A dunno where is girl B...
girl C went to toilet earlier and when she walk out and bump into girl A, girl A asked "eh! u not girl B meh?"
girl C said "no! which one is girl B?"
WTH lar!!!
they went out tgt but got no idea who the others are...
worse...
the guy quarrel with the toilet auntie...
don't ask me y...
long story...
seriously...
weird...
then came this staff from some shop...
she was standing behind the 4 of us...
suddenly we stop to look at something and the staff step on my leg and said "hello!!!" in a very unfriendly manner...
of course, out of courtesy, i apologise...
but i was very unhappy with the fact that it is her that cause harm to my leg and she has got no harm out of it...
but i told myself that my mum taught me manners and i've got manners and that i must be forgiving...
i manage to extinguish the fire in me...
i know at this point u want to vomit right?
haha...
if i don't do so then i might get angry and be unhappy for the rest of the day...
no point...
lol...
lie to myself...
white-lie...

then came 6.30 and met peck and yong tah...
went to town...
didn't want to eat dinner but the Ding Tai Feng is way too tempting...
haha...
ate till quite full...
and the food still not too bad...
must know what to order...
haha...
then went to shop around for my blazer and the guys do their random shopping and peck bought is G2000 stuff...
anyway, orchard's christmas lighting are up!!!
got the FEEL le...
haha...
pictures as follows....
the food!!!
not nice
so so...

{ 23:25 }

happy birthday to jingyi!
happy birthday to peixin!
haha...
thanks to their birthday, i was able to relax and have fun.
went out with jingyi and peck joon on tues for food and shopping...
the food part was crazy!
XinWang taiwan plua NYNY!
haha...
and i finally got my eyeliner and mascara that i should have bought long ago...
and i also got Jingyi her present!
a part of shoe from far east...
haha...
then fri i celebrated peixin's birthday with the mafias at PartyWorld!
damn crazy...
when annie sing the jap song, we only start singing when we see the eng words...
haha...
plus, i shopped at JohnLittle for a bit...
lol...

the pass month is a little crazy for me...
since sch starts, all the projects and assignments have been assigned to us...
and the time given to do it is now shorter!
i dunno y, but i can feel the stress and pressure of going to sch...
plus the friendship problem that i don't even want to talk about...
Arrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!
i think i'm being hated, again...
like when i was at YJ...
am i?
ok maybe not, i just FEEL like i am being hated...
or u can say i THINK i am being hated for the things that i do...
waoh...
2 very powerful word that are very misleading...

now get serious...
i'm very thick skin one...
i like people to get me presents for birthday...
and i mean realistic present...
so it is 2months plus to my birthday and yujia's birthday...
already got ppl ask me what i want for my birthday but unfortunately, my wishlist is not out yet.
rather, i dunno what i want for now...
nothing in my mind...
except for a wallet, i was thinking of brands cuz i'm turning 19 already so it is time i get one...
maybe say coach?
i saw one really nice one b4 but the season is long over...
k lar...
a month b4 my birthday the list will be out...
:)
{ 10:02 }

attachment is finally over!!!
i truly enjoyed the experience...
now i appreciate many more things...
i appreciate old ppl, they work so hard when they are young and now that they are old and sick, no one appreciate them and take care of them...
i really think that nursing as a career, is very challenging yet fulfilling...
hope the passion doesn't die off after a few more attachment...
haha...
and i really think money doesn't come easily...
it is a lot of hard work...
and money is really precious...
haiz...

now that my attachment is over, i've got little things to do...
there is something everyday...
yesterday suppose to go for band at nyp but ended up going to malaysia...
kinda feel bad...
skipped so many rehearsal and sectionals already...
today i'm suppose to work at 5pm [mof]
tmr i will go for nyp band at 6.30...
thursday, i'll be working at 12pm [mof]
fri, alumni rehearsal at 6.30...
so i've got a little thing everyday.
what about sat?
i wanna enjoy but i don't know where to go...
swimming, cycling, shopping, movie, k-boxing?
i seriously got no idea what i can do...
but i want to do something b4 hols are over...
haiz...
or maybe i can go malaysia for reborning?
maybe...
anyone wanna ask me out?
haha....
{ 12:47 }

life is kinda bored for me...
nothing much to do...
and everyone seem wrong to me...
or am i wrong...
lol...
sept is just not a good month...
good that it is gonna be over soon...

i'm VERY looking forward to pay day!
i'll be so happy upon seeing the amount of money i made...
all the hard work...
haha...

anyway, yujia, xinyi and i celebrated birthday with qiuyin!
but it was only a small celebration...
more like a meet-up and shopping trip for yujia and xinyi...
haha...
for me, splurging money day...
k lar...
i also don't have much to splurge...

and one last thing, i'm on attachment now...
hope it is going to be good...
pray for me too!
:)
{ 22:30 }

hey guys!!!
hope u like this new song...
its called 'bitter heart' and i heard it over the air...
i like it cuz it is very soothing and relaxing...
hehe...
then got the trumpet/trombone thingy near the end...
[i don't really know what instrument plays that. the mtv shows trumpet and one of the live video shows a trombone playing]
very nice...
:]

i spend 13hrs 40mins working at 2 diff jobs on sunday!
all the way from 8.30am to 6.30pm and 7pm to 10.41pm...
omg...
i had to work at mof at 7pm when my tuition centre job end at 6.30pm...
luckily my mum came to drive me after sending my brother back to camp...
i was sooooooooooooooo tired that day...
and i've got blister on my feet too...
but all this will be worth it when i get my pay check next month.
the job is actually kinda interesting except that bcuz i haven't memories all the item, i had a hard time identifying them and sending them to the customer...
hehe...

recently, i've been finding myself a little annoying and irritating...
for no obvious reason...
but i know it deep inside me that this is not who i really am...
u might think this is an excuse but i think i've gotten influenced by someone...
someone not very popular...
and i don't know y but i'm trying to please everyone recently...
which turns me into a hypocrite cuz i had to say the right thing to the right person...
i hate it...
i think its time i change for the better...
arrrrrr!
{ 09:27 }

I’m beginning to get sick of blogger…
It’s always giving me problem…
Perhaps I should try wordpress some day…

Anyway, I have 3 good news…
Hehe…
1st, I’ve got a job at Ministry of Food (MOF)!!!
Yeah!!!
2nd, I’ll be working with jingyi and peckjoon!!!
Yeah!!!
3rd, I finally pack my room!!!
Yeah!!!
Now it is a little less occupied by junk…
Lol…
But it is still very very dusty…
Maybe another 1 or 2 cleaning and I’ll be able to move back!!!
Hehe…
But I’ve got yet another good news, my bro going back to camp this coming Sunday!
This means there is no hurry for me to move back!
Hehe…

So this is this week’s update:
Monday
went for interview at MOF and the manager ask me and peck to come for training on wed!
damn happy!
But she also said peck confirm she’ll take in but she might not take me in…
Haiz…
Then went to ion walk walk…
Then go to shaw tower at bugis for dinner!
We found the cookie shop that was on tv!
The auntie damn cute!
And she is so nice!
She let us try the flavor b4 we decide what to buy…
Haha…
The cookies were really nice…
I’ll definitely go back for the muffins!
Haha…
Food food food food food food food……..

Tuesday
Wild wild wet with mafias!
Yeah…
Yet another outing…
But this time w/o annie…
Haiz…
Nvm lar…
Sooner or later we’ll be able to get everyone…
Lol…
I was late for a total of 2hours this time…
I’m the organizer but I’m late…
Haiz…
Feel sorry towards the rest but there was nothing I can do…
I overslept so this was the fastest I could reach unless I cab there…
Sorry guys!
But it was very fun, other than the rain which comes now and then…
There was this weird lifeguard, I couldn’t see how he look like but I think he should be ok looking…
He a bit like “kah-jiao” us…
Haha…
We went to ular-lar, the big big float that all of us get into and he was there…
When we went to the next ride he’s also there…
Then he say “twins”…
Lol…
How naïve of me to believe…
Then we walk around www he also like talk to us…
So we concluded that he was interested in either Olivia or Sihui…
Lol…
Cuz when they went to the “U” thingy he also disturb them…
Hehe…

Wednesday
So I went for training and it’s quite interesting!
Haha…
A little stressful cuz I’ve never worked in F&B…
But it wasn’t a busy day so everything was going smoothly…
My manager, Joanne, was really nice to us…
Hehe…
She offered to drive me jy and peck to the train station cuz its was a little late…
And her daughter damn cute!
Hehe…
Her smaller girl sat on my lap in the car…
Then I chat with her about Disney princesses cuz she happen to hold pictures of them!
Damn cute…
Haha…
How I wish all my male cousins were a little cutter…
Not that I don’t have female cousins but they all not so nice and cute one…
Lol…
Got home and was a little tired but happy…
Hehe…

Thursday
I knew I had to do cleaning for my room but I slack for the whole morning…
Only till after lunch then I started cleaning…
Haha…
Threw away all my sec 3 and 4 work…
I took a last look to double confirm that I wanna throw them away…
Haha…
I still don’t like all the dust…
My hands itch when I touch them…
Lol…
Still must clean lar…
Haha…
{ 21:19 }

tag replies
[olivia]i was trying to say "can't share with anyone"... lol...
[annie]talk to u? i reconsider that... :P
[von]lol... i know... but it isn't easy to show the weak side of me to other... haiz... it runs in the blood... my mum and aunt also like that one...
[peck]ya! i feel like watching again but a bit waste money... haha... but i think they are good in their own ways... proposal got nice scenery while devil got nice cloths and also the Paris part is nice... lol...

can't come online everyday now cuz my bro is at home...
he won't be in camp for a while...
shall update about the past one week...

wednesday
suppose to study for Family and Community Health but slack for the whole day in from of TV and laptop...
end up i only study for less than an hour late in the night...
~end~

thursday
Family and Community Health also flung...
can't be bothered...
see if my presentation can save me...
[i think cannot]
after the paper, the 38Mafias went for Seoul Garden!!!
damn nice!
and we went at a time where it is cheap.
hehe...
had so much food that i went to shit in the middle of the eating...
lol...
but came back and ate a little more...
then really BTH le...
give up and went walk walk at Bugis Junction and Street...
so much nice clothes but no money to buy!!!
omg...
i feel like killing myself...
spend so much on food when i'm already so fat...
for what?
haiz...
but food is really nice...
hehe...
helped PT with her baptism's "attire"...
then went home late...
~end~

Friday
PT's baptism ceremony!
lol...
meet olivia,sihui and peixin at tampanis early to walk walk at T1 and Tamp mall...
ate carl's jr...
the beef chili cheese fries is damn nice lar!!!
haha...
it was a long journey to her church...
we tot we would be late...
luckily we made it in time...
we saw her drop into the water...
happy for her...
haha...
~end~

saturday
wanted to slack at home but still went to op...
i went there very very late cuz i only wanted to get out of house to return story book...
so meet peck and YT go SSC...
on the way back went to sun plaza to return...
i dunno y but i was very very tired when i reach SSC...
like no mood to do anything...
even eat...
haiz...
dunno what is wrong...
~end~

sunday
work was ok, surprisingly...
but i was overwhelmed with all the replacement dates and timing from the teachers...
luckily, most of them wrote it on paper so i just need to file it somewhere...
haha...
and there was a little teacher's day celebration for my boss by 2 of her ex student and her kids...
haha...
they wanna like hide hide and give her surprise but cannot...
haha...
damn funny...
then when they got the cake and came back, they cannot get the candles lighted!
got lighter but all spoil!
haha...
they search up and down for it and finally gave up when my boss herself said don't have...
haha...
and i had a slice of it!
very nice...
haha...
then there is this chinese opera new my work place so i ask my mum come watch and fetch me...
but end up it is not nice...
not like the traditional one...
mix with all the weird weird story and music...
they even use drum set lor...
like wth...
and as usual, the 1st row was "reserved" for "u know who"...
and it started raining...
so i don't wanna watch liao...
left mum alone while i go do pedicure...
very nice...
hehe...
but the person didn't manage to cut out my ingrown nails so my toe is still hurting when there is pressure on it...
not too bad lar...
$23 for basic pedicure[cut, remove dead skin and pain], $5 for nail art [draw one!]
haha...
mum sponsor $10...
so i had to pay $18...
but i got $50 in advance from my boss so still ok...
just don't anyhow spend...
hehe...
~end~

anyway, i had an agreement with peck and yt...
no more restaurant for 2 months to save money to spend on other stuff especially clothes!
haha...
hope we can achieve it...
resist the temptation!
{ 23:00 }

Something is wrong with my blogger again...
but still can blog...
haha...

i flung most of my papers so now i'm praying hard that i've got luck with the MCQ section and that my presentation fetched me good grades...
and 1 last paper to go...
thursday!!!
and off i go shopping with the 38Mafias!!!
haha...
fri will be rotting and then followed by Peiting's baptism at some church at marine parade...
thats far...

and updates for today!!!
haha...
after exam receive message from yongtah...
so as usual, meet yt and peck go makan and jalan jalan...
rot all the way at orchard...
ion and forum...
then yt suddenly say wanna watch movie...
The Proposal...
i wanna watch too but i'm kinda broke, and so is peck...
and we manage to psyco yt to treat!
YEAH!!!
go cine to see timing but end up all the timing a bit late...
so went to hereen to use the AXS machine to check timing at GV but apparently the timing is also quite screwed up...
they want to go back to cine to watch but i'm reluctant to walk...
too lazy after walking on orchard for dunno how long...
so end up i gave in and went to watch movie...
haha...
the movie is damn nice!!!
its funny from the start but it gets touching at the later part...
the family and love...
touching...
its like another fairytale...
something that don't happen in real life that often...[i'm sure this type of thing happen somewhere on this big planet]

now, a series of unhappy event happened recently...
it's gonna be extremely long!
dunno y, i'm on low spirit and kinda like lose interest in life till like today...
brightened up a little...
and bad news: my bro is out of camp for about 3weeks!
which means living hell for me...
i felt like i wanna leave house on sunday night...
got cold shoulder and sarcasm from him...
sucker...
he got only connective tissues in his skull...
no brain...
i like the slave in the house...
i'll tell u some of the things he said...
"ur CHEAP perfume very smelly!" -> it's not smelly at all... and it's not cheap, it's branded lor!
to my mum, about use of car, say till like i occupy it and don't let him use...
the fact is my mum want to drive me and then pass the car to him cuz he need it only like 30mins later...
i never even say a word about the car. and i've already set alarm at a time where i can take public transport cuz i knew he had a x-ray to do the next morning...
sunday night, they bought pizza back from malaysia an i never eat dinner so my mum ask me go eat...
i took only 2 slices and there is still like 2/3 left in the box and he start "suan-ing" me about eating "his" pizza and say he must quickly finish ALL so that nothing is left for me...
all this happened on sunday night and i had a paper that i've yet to study for the next day...
what do u think?
i went to my bed and cover myself with blanket and cry beneath it, not daring to make a single sound...
couldn't stop crying...
then wanted to divert myself so message JingYi but tot that i'll be bothering her so ended the conversation with "nitez"...
so i flung the test...
never study and went in...
wth...
i know i'm a pain cuz every time i complain on the blog...
but i don't want to get depression by keeping everything to myself...
its like dangerous...
and all this happenings just proves me right...
i need to get into the working force asap and gain financial independence...
one day, i'll leave this horrible place that i call "home"...
i wanna leave!!!
perhaps with my mum...
i have to call this place home cuz i've got no say with the "family"...
and i don't even know if the word family is appropriate to use in my context...
its more like 'people staying under the same roof' rather than 'family' though they mean the same thing...
its the way u say it...
haiz...
bla bla bla...
i hate myself when i whine...
but i like to whine on my blog...
i can't whine in real life...
its like the image and the name and the character/personality doesn't tally...
so the only way is to do it on the blog...
{ 23:58 }

today marks the start of exam...
guess what?
i just started studying last night and i didn't even burn mid-night oil...
will i make it?
haha...

cough still there despite all the rest that i've take...
now worse, i think flu is coming in...
and as usual, my mum die die won't bring me to doc one...
unless i have persistant fever which never happen...
i only had fever once in a while and they always go as quickly as the came...
2 more days one week le...
hope the cough will go away...

anyway, tmr is the 7th month le...
which means we must be extra careful when going out...
{ 09:05 }

now a days really dunno what is wrong with blogger...
lots of problem...

anyway...
yesterday was movie with sihui and olivia!
haha...
finally catch Up in 3D...
not really worth the money lor...
the 3D effects are like shit...
only a bit only...
not like last time those 3D that i tried b4...
so dissapointed...
but the movie is worth watching...
just don't watch 3D...
lol...

and today...
haha...
went to ikea with adeline and peck cuz no alumni...
i was late for quite a bit but ade was at suntec also so we all manage to meet about 3.30pm...
haha...
went for food as usual...
then walk around...
without fail, there is the band talk...
bla bla bla...
sometimes i didn't understand what they were saying...
lol...
but anyway...
not good stuff lar..
so don't understand even better...
haha...
walk walk around and found many good stuff...
the display kitchen is really nice...
haha...
then we seat at the sofa bed chatting for very long...
too shiok...
very comfortable...
haha...
and b4 we left, hotdog and ice-cream!
haha...
on our way back, we pranked marcus...
he was messaging with ade and ask about rehearsal when alumni band is having break...
so we decided to prank him and say today's attendance was exceptionally good and we are playing 1712 overture...
not 1812 but 1712 overture...
haha...
he actually believed so i message him and ask when band resumes...
lol...
followed by peck asking when he book out cuz mr tan want to know...
wth lar...
haha...
so end up ade told him the truth...
dunno if he angry or not...
lol...
must have 4gotten...
lol...
anyway...
it would be good if we really had good attendance...
haiz...
then can play something else...
if not we can't do a lot of things...
haiz...

tomorrow will be better!
:D
{ 21:47 }

its sad...
there are a few ppl...
i know them for quite some time...
and they are practically like part of my life story...
but suddenly, i feel like i no longer know them...
i know ppl change, so do i...
but some just change to a point that i don't even know if they are still who i know them as...
its confusing and its sad...
haiz...
{ 22:24 }

wanted to go watch fireworks for national day but majourity wins...
ended up we went to Yongtah's house for steamboat...
haha...
its damn nice...
and we still manage to watch a bit of fireworks but it suck...
rather not talk about it...
haha...

suppose to meet Yongtah, Marcus, Peck and Qianling 3pm at AMK hub but i fell asleep while watching tv and only woke up at 2.55pm...
wth...
but the rest also cannot meet on time at AMK hub at 3pm...
so yongtah and marcus were left there waiting for me to arrive...
an hour later, i reached and started shopping around for steamboat ingredient tgt with them...
qianling joined us shortly...
then head to yongtah's house...
process the food a bit and then brought all the barang barang down and setup...
haha...
kettle, pot, bowls...
everything that we needed...
then we started cooking...
adeline came later cuz she had to go for neighbour's party...
lol...

the food was good and so was the atmosphere...
we brought down laptop and speaker and listen to all the national day songs...
haha...
and we also watch a bit of xiao mao qiu...
some childhood cartoon....
lol...
and of cuz, without fail, we'll keep taking photos...
haha...
but can't upload here...
go to http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=98692&id=642961800&l=96eaed00c4 to see bah...
this link no facebook account also can go one...
haha
still got some with adeline...
if u got facebook then can see...
lol...
great fun man...
maybe next time also do this...
no need to squeeze with the crowd at town...
{ 16:15 }

this 2 days couldn't sleep well...
dunno y...
maybe bcuz of all the ghost stories that kulshan and syahidah had told us...
haha...

anyway, i had a great time today...
eating nearly the whole day with qianling[who left earlier], peck, yongtah, adeline and marcus...
damn shiok lor...
eat whole day...
from ion orchard to the cathay then go to marina square and end up at city link's xin wang taiwan cafe...
haha...
then i manage to buy a white sweeter from uniqlo for $39.90...
kinda like found excuse to buy it cuz teacher say go attachment only can wear white sweeter if really cold...
but i guess i won't use it after all...
haha...
cuz someone told me we'll be too busy that we won't feel cold...
haha...
and it is actually quite ex...
lol...
but i don't care lar...
got the urge to buy...
better then buying from cotton on cuz my mum will eventually scold me for buying cheap and bad quality clothes...
haiz...
who ask my mum to be a seamstress last time...
lol...

i'll find a day and go watch Up in 3D...
i kinda like gave up on Harry Potter le...
everyone watched already...
Up would be more entertaining...
haha...
{ 23:59 }

i'm feeling bad cuz the "toe nail incident" is getting more complicated...
kinda like responsible for it cuz i initiated telling ms allison tan...
shouldn't have done that if i knew things will get more complicated...
sry to olivia, yvonne and sihui...
haiz...
and to peiting...
lol...
i'm seriously angry but with no valid reason...
but obviously we are still good friend...
haha...

2nd thing...
i'm feeling bad towards qiuyin, yujia, jingyi, xinyi...
suppose to have a gathering this coming fri for steamboat buffet...
but bcuz i don't want to skip alumni...
i want to make it a point to go for practice if not i'll start slacking and come up with all kinds of excuses to not go for band...
i mean, this is my principle...
sort of...
but i'm really sry for missing out gathering with u guys...
i know its a rare chance for us to meet but i just think that there are things that i need to do...
epecially when its the last practice b4 the break for our exams...
haiz...

and finally, i'm exercising...
tmr shall be the swimming day!
my aim: 6 laps!
lol...
that is very little but at least i got an aim...
and this week is going to be good though the alphabet still bothers me...
how can she act like nothing had happened and that nothing is happening?
yes, she is acting...
i know i shouldn't be bother but its bothering me...
or u want to use haunting...
whatever...
the point i want to make is i'm utterly disgusted of what had happened and what she said...
its impossible for me to accept anyone like this to be my friend...
so i'm officially saying this,"u are not my friend, just some random classmate. till the day i think u are normal..."
ok...
thats like "WTH" but seriously...
i don't like to act...
though i can...
lol...
{ 21:29 }

i'm feeling bad cuz the "toe nail incident" is getting more complicated...
kinda like responsible for it cuz i initiated telling ms allison tan...
shouldn't have done that if i knew things will get more complicated...
sry to olivia, yvonne and sihui...
haiz...
and to peiting...
lol...
i'm seriously angry but with no valid reason...
but obviously we are still good friend...
haha...

2nd thing...
i'm feeling bad towards qiuyin, yujia, jingyi, xinyi...
suppose to have a gathering this coming fri for steamboat buffet...
but bcuz i don't want to skip alumni...
i want to make it a point to go for practice if not i'll start slacking and come up with all kinds of excuses to not go for band...
i mean, this is my principle...
sort of...
but i'm really sry for missing out gathering with u guys...
i know its a rare chance for us to meet but i just think that there are things that i need to do...
epecially when its the last practice b4 the break for our exams...
haiz...

and finally, i'm exercising...
tmr shall be the swimming day!
my aim: 6 laps!
lol...
that is very little but at least i got an aim...
and this week is going to be good though the alphabet still bothers me...
how can she act like nothing had happened and that nothing is happening?
yes, she is acting...
i know i shouldn't be bother but its bothering me...
or u want to use haunting...
whatever...
the point i want to make is i'm utterly disgusted of what had happened and what she said...
its impossible for me to accept anyone like this to be my friend...
so i'm officially saying this,"u are not my friend, just some random classmate. till the day i think u are normal..."
ok...
thats like "WTH" but seriously...
i don't like to act...
though i can...
lol...
{ 21:29 }

decided to post another one to update my readers of my life...
basically, i'm tensed...
blues on every monday and every other day when something bad happen...
[thats like everyday of the pass one week]
stressed about sociology ICA the pass week...
in no mood to care about other ICAs...
i'm like damn guilty about it...
didn't do much for the group when we are all suppose to work tgt...
episode of WEIRD happenings and behaviours...
and now sucky attitude and character...
u know what i mean...
the big curvey letter...

then at home...

1. that sucky father of mine actually said this to me, "你以为你家啊！/ u think this is ur home!" which make me a home less kid...
i was right. i should graduate and earn money and get my mum and I our of this living hell... i want to have a place of my own, where i can watch tv and have no one changing my channel. where i can sit anywhere i like. where i can speak whatever i like. where i can make it like a home. where i can have my own decor, furniture. where i belong....

2. i wish my brother can grow up... seriously, what is the problem with him? when there is a problem with the internet, solve it lar! scold me for what. and thanks to that busybody mother of mine, i got criticised last sunday. i was quietly waiting for my bro to get offline so that i could do my Socio PPT. i didn't want to ask him to get offline or change to another modem. then my mum go and tell him to change. i just wanted to lessen the arguement. ended up, he said, "give u lar, don't say i bully you." i was angry with my mum but next second, i realise its not her fault. and as u know, i'm very stubborn. i refuse to use the internet that night. and everything he need to criticise me. "stupid","idoit","dumb" are words i hear everytime he is home. i'm beginning to understand y marcus, chengkok, yongtah all say getting into NS will make someone slow, stupid... lesser usage of the brain... especially to those that always look at the computer once they book out...

yeah...
welcome to my life...

HOWEVER!!!
i must still thank these ppl for being in my life...
which give me the strength to move on...
1st Grp: Jingyi, Qiuyin, Yujia, Huiling, Xinyi and all the other pass op clique friends...
though i don't really see ur, it still feels good to think of u guys once in a while...
:D
2nd Grp: the old ppl/ 老人 or the "no vege" gang! lol... they include peck, yongtah, qianling, adeline, marcus and some others that i see when we go for alumni or outing... all the no vege talk, song, jokes and other lame stuff helps me 4get all the unhappiness and stress for a little while. and ya... sometimes it include ms chang lar... old ppl mar... lol...
:P
3rd Grp: [members of 38club] Peiting, Peixin, Annie, Von, Si hui, Olivia, & Kulshan, Kim and some other NR0927 ppl... they are sources of my stress but they are also sources of some of my laughter. some of them being older then me, gave me enlightenment and others being younger, brings me laughter. for those same age as me, lol, u gives me confort cuz i know i'm not alone. haha... and this grp of ppl really rox. rox like not op-rox but nr-rox. i dunno if u understand this but they are really special. i can no longer imagine my poly life without them... haha...
:)
4th Grp: don't say i 4got ur! i really miss u guys! the CTG122 guys! haha... SWL, Steph, Yiting, Jessica, Sihui and Lauren... not forgetting hwaying, debbie, sherlyn and jiayu. lol... memories... though short but fond ones... too bad can't go tim-sum with ur! i've got class! haiz... same as the other group, ur are like 122-rox... no other ways to describe...lol...did i ever mention that my current mentor is totally like miss jane lim? haha...
:]
last but not least, my mum and my 12yrs friend, nicole! haha... there are already like one of the brain cells thats never dead... lol...

k
this is getting tooooooooooooo long....
anyway, if ur names are WRITTEN in the above post, u really mean a lot in my heart.
for those not written, u know which category u belong to.
either u belong to the "u are somewhere in my mind..." or u are the "fuck off!"
get it?
i think u know what i mean...
;)
{ 21:33 }

i'm damn pissed by one of the teacher at the tuition center i'm working at...
she is like damn irritating lar!!!
she always think she's the best when she kinda like suck...
talking to us like we were her slave...
like we are inferior to her...
like everythings is our fault...

eg...
there was this once she didn't come for one week so another teacher replaced her...
it was a last min thing so all the materials were not prepared so i took out her old materials and gave to the new teacher...
wat happened was, the following week, she came into my work place and when my boss said hi to her she totally igored!!!
not that she didn't her...
she was looking at her!!!
like wth...
the next second, she was demanding for her materials which was placed back at her usual place...
i told her its under the table where she always puts at but she said (with confidence) thats its not there and made a big fuss out of it in front of the other teachers,students and parents...
then i went after her to the classroom...
guess what?
both boxes of materials were under the table!
even the students saw it when she only took one of the boxes!!!
i pulled out the other box and give it to her...
she still got the cheek to tell me "where did u find it?"...
like "THE!!!" i went to the same place she went!!!
and she didn't even bother to say thanks or sorry to me and grap the box and go...
like wth lar!!!
i can't believe lor...
she is still a sch teacher in some sec sch leh...
what had she been taught?

b4 that she had been showing attitudes towards us[the recept]...
i didn't bother only...
now i'm angry...
i nearly cried cuz i'm too angry...
fuck lar...
who she think she is?
to do that to ppl that didn't even offend her AT ALL!!!
so damn furious...

what to do...
i'm just a part-time worker there...
just earning money cuz i'm poor...
lol...
bare with it 1st...
justice speacks for itself...
shall continue to be nice to her...
like the way i treat other teachers...
i'm not hypocrite or what...
just don't want to cause more trouble to my boss...
and to keep my job...
where can u find a job that allows u to slack?
{ 21:17 }

friend's tag replied!
spammer's tag, refer to last post...
:D
{ 09:51 }

one word: childish
grow up kid S
{ 23:09 }

i stayed up all night till morning 6am on 6th July to do my CT reflection...
i'm really tired now...
SLEEP!!!!!!!!
{ 22:20 }

[warning!]
*wordy post ahead*


near to a month since i last blog...
but still...
nothing to blog about...
Summary: sch, band, OP, concert, chalet, class outing, extra one week holiday, the untouched 1000 words essay for Critical Thinking...
basically, i'm screwed up...
but at least its after the chalet that my life is being screwed up...
how did i screw it up?
no idea...
after the chalet, everything i did was according to intuition...
maybe that's how i screwed up my life...
no rational thinking...
its coming back again...
haiz...
maybe i should keep myself busy...
as long as i get a little bit of rest from that hectic life of mine i do things that ruin my life...
because i'm not thinking...
my zodiac shouldn't be horse but bull...
haha...
bull not for stubbornness but for the need to be engaged in work constantly [hardworking]...
and i need lady luck to be on my side for July '09 or i might go down hill all the way till i get optimistic again...
for those who believe in god [any god], pray for me...
and for those who don't, wish me good luck with all your heart!!!
and for those who really know what is happening to me [i guess a few of u], talk to me...
make me laugh...
i really need that...
like the way i used to laugh with yujia and jingyi over every single thing, rational or irrational...
or at least stop sighing and smile like this:


yes...
like this silly man Mr Spongebob Squarepants...
at least he is happy though silly...
smile....
not that difficult afterall...
i think i can manage that...
at least...
for now...
{ 00:51 }

{ 23:16 }

i just went to weiliang's blog...
and seriously, i should visit weiliang's blog lesser [i'm already visiting his blog only twice a week only...]
whenever i go to his blog, i miss YJC...
i miss CTG122 of 2008...
i really miss steph, yiting, jessica, sihui, lauren and weiliang...
really really...
haiz...
not that i don't like my current clique in nyp, the yj clique is just so special and i actually enjoy their company...
or rather, u can say i enjoy just watching all the drama happening to them...
haha...
missing them...
{ 23:09 }

today is super free day...
lesson from 8 to 10 only...
rotting in sch from 10 till 3...
haha...
nothing to do...
then went home to watch boys over flower ep 13 and 14...
went for nypsw at 6.30 and finally played alto there bcuz the bari mouth piece was missing...
but next time still must play bari...
wt...
haiz...
just my luck...
{ 23:36 }

thanks guys!
though i'm ok now but i hope i didn't scare some of u guys!
i just couldn't get some of the things that i've been thinking...
its complicated...
hope the coming week will be good...
:D
{ 20:47 }

i feel like dying...
i don't know what is going on with my life yet again but i really feel that i shouldn't exist in this pathetic world...
doesn't that make me even more pathetic...
somehow i'm just not happy...
and i'm not sad...
there are just too too too too many things that is misplaced in my life...
so many that i dunno what is happening...
maybe u can say i'm afraid...
fear!
thats the word...
and i dunno what i'm fearful of...
tears just comes out of my glands but everytime i can just prevent it from flowing out...
not too bad...
and ppl don't usually see me cry...
seldom...
not tears of joy...
tears of sadness?
tears of fear?
tears of loneliness?
i'm really pathetic, there is no word to describe my feeling...
not even fear...
be it alone or with my nyp clique, i just don't feel that good...
{ 22:23 }

{ 15:12 }

my old habit is acting up again...
i say things without thinking and it hurt someone unknowingly...
i don't really mean it but i just kinda like tot of it in my head and said it out...
i hate myself...
i always cannot control this part of me and its what ppl hate most about me...
sorry to annie who got "shot" at...
this was what happened...

annie, one of my classmate and gd friend in nyp, said that she saw her sec sch friend but he/she always don't want to have eye contact with her...
so subconsciously i was thinking y...
then suddenly i just blurt out, "cuz u are ugly?"
ok...
that was really mean but i didn't mean it...
it just happened to be in my head...
and instantly i knew i said something very hurtful and tried to say sorry as much as i could...
but somehow i think i can never make it up to her...
that was really mean...
just like how i hurt jingyi the last time i said, "oh, the gong girl cried."
i'm very very very very very guilty now...
me and my big mouth...
of cuz she said she didn't mind but i still think that was mean...
haiz...
what to do...
i just can't change that part of me...
its part of my character...
suck to be me...
{ 11:17 }

poly life...
what should i say...
weird...
something i've never tot of...
and problems faced?
kinda like cannot say...
just plain weird...
W
E
I
R
D
!!!
WEIRD!!!
{ 11:17 }

yes...
yet again...
its mass update...
haha...
due to my laziness...

10/4/09 [last friday]
celebrate birthday with xinyi...
jingyi was very late cuz she was looking for present b4 she go home and change and get back to bugis after work...
end up we only have full attendance at 8pm...
the rest just refer to previous post...
:]

11/4/09 [last saturday]
suppose to go for Good News Singapore but my mum wasn't very happy about it so i didn't go...
sorry candy, i know u wanted me to go very much...
end up i spend my time at home doing nothing...
went to meet peck joon and yong tah after GNS at northpoint for supper...
by then, the only place that we can eat is XinWang HKcafe and mac so the choice is obvious...
sat down and eat...
talk a bit about what to do for the opus photo exhibition...
help yong tah a bit cuz he is doing all by himself...
give idea and stuff...
gossip-ed as usual...
bitch-ed too...
haha...
that is something we cannot miss with opwo boys...
for some reason the boys from opwo are also very bitch-y and gossip-y...
haha...
then we went home at 1am...

12/4/09 [sunday]
work as usual...
was very irritated by those parents who really think that customers are always right...
whats always right is prove, solid prove...

weekdays [from monday till today]
this week was rather hard for me...
emotional roller-coaster...
y am i born to this idiotic family of Chongs were everyone is still think like that of the barbaric era...
i rather be born Teh[my mum's surname] were the logical thinkers are and where reasons and rights stands...
i seriously feel like saying the F word but unlike my bro, i'm not that privileged to do that...
i only have cannons to bomb him till he vanish in to powder...
trying to make it funny but still, its not funny to my at all...
i wish i can earn money and buy my own house...
get out of this living hell...
forever...

enough of emoing...
i went to malaysia on monday to get my hair treated...
haha...
in other words, i went for treatment...
its slightly cheaper than singapore and the service is better though the environment is not that good...
they not only wash ur hair, they give u massage!
haha...
not something u get in singapore...
for SGD35 u get the lowest grade treatment but for RM50 you get the best...
thats SGD10 saved for better service!!!
now my hair is a little healthier but because its been 5months since the last reborn the new hair grew...
now there is like a section that is a little curlier than the rest...
but i'm still going to wait...
till i know i have enough money...
till i finish purchasing all the sch necessities...
:]
{ 16:09 }

i'm so dead! i owe lots of photos...

happy belated birthday xinyi!!!

her shocking photo with her birthday present[Dickies since her bag is like... haiz...] and birthday cake!
hehe, i don't wanna put the nice nice smile photo...
went to MOF(Ministry of Food) to celebrate with her after her long day in sch...
the food was ok but the desert was superb!!!
the environment was nice too...


then we went to iluma, the new shopping mall just opp. bugis junction...
shops were mostly closed when we reach there but our main aim was to see the cinema...
quite a nice place but i would only go again when there are more shops or if i need to watch a movie there...
pictures speak a 1000 words!!!

just outside iluma. the exterior is so pretty! :]

and this is us trying to get a successful jump shot using our pathetic phone camera. look like 3 ghost! haha...

there were 3 cute kiddy ride outside the arcade in iluma.
first, Pikachu!!! unfortunately, jingyi got distracted by yujia so it was a failure though worm smile widely.

Second, Doraemon!!! its damn cute... and look carefully at its mouth... the black black thing there is actually qiuyin inside... lol...

Lastly, its Ultraman!!! but i somehow can't find his photo so lets just skip it since its not very popular either... hahahaha....

and thats me and yujia trying to take photo of ourselves but failed... yet again...


{ 15:12 }

i realise i always post a few hours after the previous day...
so its always 12am or 1am that kinda time...

yesterday[saturday], wanted to go to op to see how the band was cuz i've not heard them for 1 week excluding the one on 10th anniversary concert cuz that obviously sucks due to the stage curtain and the stupid mic...
however, during the 10th ann concert i receive a call from my colleague asking me to replace one of the teacher who will be on course on sat...
fyi: i'm working part-time as a receptionist at one of the tuition centre in amk
i was very reluctant to teach...
i never like teaching even though i've taught b4...
in pri sch, teaching lower pri how to read, in band, teaching ppl how to play, and teaching chinese at my work place...
i knew they were desperate already, having to look for me to teach...
so i sad ok...
lol...
P5 and P6 English, P4 Science...
i was very worried about the eng class...
i can't teach eng even though i've improved a lot as compared to when i'm in sec3...
still went ahead and try...
worse case; ask for help from my lady boss...
hahahahaha...
ended up i enjoyed the P4 sci lesson...
i think i can handle sci and math...
eng and chi are not that steady...
chi long time never touch le...
haiz...
i'm a more science person rather than a language person...
hahahaha...
i was so tired after teaching...
my feet hurt from the 6hrs of standing...
my throat feels sore from the endless shouting to shut them up...
and finally, my brain was failing me...
i wasn't talking sence when i was in the last 30mins of sci...
i gave break to them so that i could recharge myself too...
teaching is no fun!!!
:P
hope this whole day of teaching will bring me enough money to sustain through when sch reopens...
if not i really don't how i'm gona get the money to buy stationery and random stuff...
haiz...

life as boring...
nothing new...
home...
band...
work...
what's there to look forward to?
i need enlightenment,
& i need to shed all that weight!!!
wake up girl!!!!!
:B

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